Well, here I am...
Mood:  not sure
Now Playing: DI.fm vocal trance channel (cool but kinda skippy)
Topic: Nephrite Naru Treasury
For some reason, I got really annoyed with LJ and decided to strike out on my own, journaling-wise. This is so great, that Angelfire gives me 1 GB of space and I can add a blog without messing up my site that's already here. Maybe I'll even move my scrapbook blog over here. Seriously thinking about upgrading to the next level, with 3 GB of space, when I'm done paying back what I had to take out of the savings account a few years ago. *sweatdrop*

I don't know, I just don't like the community thing. Maybe it's because I'm very introverted. Or maybe because I'm anti-social. Or maybe it's because I always end up getting ignored, which seems kind of contradictory - I'm shy and anti-social, but being ignored, left on the fringes, feels bad, whether in real life or online. That's why I quit posting at the Creating Keepsakes message board. I felt like I was always either being ignored or getting put down.

I was wondering a few weeks ago, when I was reading a bunch of stuff about the hoo-hah about Fanlib.com, why I don't like to post my fanfiction in communities and large archives. I'd rather post on my own website (though I've got a few things here and there, on friends' websites). It might be because I like the control of doing my own thing my own way - I tend to be stubborn that way. Plus I don't like being associated with all the crap that gets dumped into those kinds of places.

So whatever the reason, I'm happier being on my own. Maybe no one will ever read this (if you do, please leave a comment at least saying "hi" so I'll know you were here ^.^). But at least it's a place where I can expound on stuff I'm thinking about without feeling like I'm bumping up against everyone else.

One of the things I've been thinking about is why after 6 1/2 years I'm still doing the N&N website when pretty much everyone else who was doing DK sites when I started has either taken down their site or just stopped updating. (Except for Stayka, who still adds to hers every once in a while.) Basically, it's still fun, and I'm past the age where I'm re-inventing myself every few years. I guess when you're younger you can pick up and drop interests every few years but at my age I feel more of a long-term commitment to things. It may also be that some of them have grown up and gotten serious. At 44, I think I'm as grown up and serious as I'm going to get. :D

Mainly, though, I feel like this is the story I'm compelled to tell. There are a lot of other anime I like, and while Sailor Moon is still a favorite, it isn't very close to the top of the list. But no other story has grabbed me the way Nephrite and Naru did. I spent two hours one night crying over the episode where Nephrite dies, which I haven't done with any other series. Then when I saw how under-represented their story was on the Web, I felt almost like N&N were asking me to make sure they weren't forgotten. [/weird] There are other coulda-been shoulda-been couples that interest me, but the worlds of the shows they're in don't allow for people to return from the dead. Sailor Moon allows for this, amply. And it's a rule for me that fanfiction needs to follow the rules of the universe it takes place in.

Anyway, that's why I'm still here doing this when pretty much everyone else has moved on. And every once in a while, someone still pops up to tell me that they like what I'm doing. Which is nice. Very nice ^___^